There is this plant I keep near my front door, it's there because I haven't really figured out where to plant it yet. This plant is interesting. One day it looks full of life, leaves full and occasionally a flower. The next day though it looks like it's about dead, the leaves are dried up and the flowers have fallen off.
The crazy thing is once I give it a little water, refreshment; within a couple of hours the leaves are opening back up. It looks alive once again. It doesn't take much water either, just a cupful.
The last few weeks have been rather challenging ones for me. I have felt take advantage of and unworthy. I simply can't figure out why things are not happening. I am patiently waiting, but still nothing. Every once and awhile there is a glimmer of hope, but it's short lived when something else happens.
I have questioned if I am even supposed to keep doing what I've been doing. I believe I am following God's calling on my life, but right now I am getting little results. Then again maybe I am only supposed to minister to a few rather than a bunch.
A few times these past couple weeks as I have driven to church, I have had to fight back tears as I wonder why. I feel dried up.
My Tuesday night Bible study group though helps refresh me. Last night was another night where I felt dried up and was questioning things. The tears were ready to fall, but I fought back since I was driving to church. Somehow during the sharing, laughing, and diving into the Bible I got the "water" I needed. I came away feeling much better than when I arrived.
I am not planning on giving up on God's calling on my life. Even though there maybe days I feel dried up, I will continue to get refreshed and filled up with the living water. I know God has good plans for me.
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