Filling the Void

In him was life and that life was the light of men. The light shines in the darkness, but the darkness has not understood it. John 1:4-5 NIV

Emptiness, void, alone...there are times when I've felt this way. Sometimes it seems no one truly understands what I'm going through, which unless he/she has walked in my shoes and felt what I've felt they don't.

We each have a hole we dig for ourselves. An emptiness that will keep feeling empty until we fill it with the right things. We each determine how deep we let our hole get before we fill it.

Sometimes we begin to fill it with the wrong things. Sure it's steady for a time but eventually those things begin to crumble away. The wrong things seem stable or dependable, but they are far from it.

One of the times I felt empty and alone was when we were about to lose it all. My husband was unaware how serious the financial situation had become. He had an idea it was bad because he recommended a place to help us get out of debt. I wouldn't have anything to do with it though.

It seemed easier to borrow on the credit card then to find a better way. The debt kept growing. There was never enough money to cover it all. I tried to fill the hole, but the hole only got deeper. Finally, I surrendered to the one I knew could solve it. Surely He could fill my hole.

That day I confessed all my mistakes to the Lord, sought forgiveness, and learned to serve Him. He filled my hole that day and saved us from a life of homelessness. Sure there are times when I try to re dig that hole, but quickly I surrender and He refills my hole again.

As my preschoolers have been learning, there is no darkness where there is light. God is the light, He's willing to come in and fill your hole. All you need to do is give Him the shovel.